I created this memorial as a way to hold onto the memory of my baby brother. I am just not ready to let go yet........in reality, I'm not sure I ever will be. I think about him every day, multiple times a day. I hear a song on the radio that reminds me of him, or makes me wonder if it is how he was feeling on that final day, and I start crying. I have had to explain to my son why mommy is crying suddenly while driving to/from school.

I just want people to know him, and love him, like I did.....like I do. While Sean and I hadn't been close in a while, he was still my brother and I loved him like crazy.

Sean was such a cute little boy. From the moment he was born, those gorgeous blue eyes and enormously contagious smile sucked you in. As he grew up he wanted to do whatever I was doing. Being so much older than him, and having my friends around, I often got upset because he wouldn't leave me alone. After the friends were gone, I would spend time hanging out with Sean while our parents were at work.

As a kid, Sean was really silly. I remember times we would be goofing around and I would tickle him like crazy just to hear his laugh. His laugh would disappear and become this strange crackling noise once he reached the point of hysteria. Any time he was feeling down or like he couldn't do something (math homework in particular), I would get him laughing to ease the frustration he was feeling and then we would tackle the problem together.

As a teenager (and later an adult), Sean tried to be my protector. Since he grew up so much bigger than me, it was comforting to know he had my back. If I had a problem with a guy Sean wanted to "take him down" for me.

Later, he became a dad to some really wonderful kids. In particular, his sweet boys. My nephews brought him so much happiness. I know he really loved riding his dirtbike with Dylan and playing video games with Gage. I know he also liked going to the beach with all of the boys, Bryan included. My nephews are wonderful boys that need all of the love and support we can give them now.

At Sean's services I vowed to make amends and not hold grudges any longer. Unfortunately it is too late for Sean and I to get back to the closeness we had for so long as we grew up. I really wish I hadn't waited so long to work things out with him. He is SOOOO missed. I often don't know how my parents make it through the day without breaking down. I know they need to be strong for the boys. They are truly heroic.

Mom and Dad, Sean would be really happy you are taking such good care of the boys. He would also be proud of the way you are able to hold back the tears around them. I love you both more than you will ever know.

Sharon